God's love through Tatum's eyes...

YES! I finally get to blog!!! There is always something to do when you have a 24/7 job but I am taking a break to blog!!! (Or maybe I should say I am sacrificing a few hours of precious sleep to blog.) I'm really getting into this blogging thing.

So my little 5 month old...

TATUM BELLA

brought me to tears this past week. The other day, she was in her swing crying to get out. It was her nap time so I was ignoring her, hoping she would fall asleep while I was trying to get something done around the house.

BTW, I do feel like this most of the time (minus the dog and cat)

After minutes went by, I could see nap time was not coming so I picked her up and sat with her on the recliner. As I looked in her eyes, with tears still falling from her eyeballs dripping down off her cheeks,

This is not Tatum, but she does those poochy lips often

she gave me this absolute sweet "I ADORE YOU MOM" smile and tears immediatly swelled up my eyes. I didn't deserve her smile and adoration. For all she knew, I was completely ignoring her for no purpose when she was crying out for my attention as she sat in the swing. I would've completely understood if after I picked her up, she would've given me the cold shoulder because she thought I didn't want to hold her. But instead, she was giving me this adoring smile.

At that moment, I could sense God speaking to my heart. "This is how I look at you Charlotte, ALL THE TIME,not just when you do everything right, but even when you ignore ME." He doesn't punish me in any way, He just LOVES me. (Romans 2:4 God's GOODNESS leads us to repentance)

Talk about a WOW moment with God and Tatum. THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME A LITERAL PICTURE OF YOUR LOVING EYES LOOKING AT ME! (I need to remember all this when I am mad at myself for those rare times I am not perfect.

 Oh,Wait a second, I wrote that wrong. I mean, I need to remember those loving eyes looking at me all day long as I am RARELY

. Yeah, that sounds right. ;)

Oh, and UPDATE ON MY DIRTY BATHROOMS:

I cleaned them this week....

Notice I have 3 rolls of toilet paper waiting for you...or a bag of baby wipes if you prefer!

 So if you come over to my house, not only will there be enough toilet paper for you, the toilet seats will be sparkling....(nothing brown stuck on them....hopefully) ;)

Till Next Time!

Valentines Day and Dirty Bathrooms

WHAT A WEEK! I have been wanting to post ALL week and it has been a whirlwind. I can tend to be a perfectionist so I have been "editing" a certain post but it's just not jiving so I'm just gonna write tonight and see where it takes me...YIKES...this could be scary!

First, today is Valentines Day and I realize Valentines Day really has a love or hate relationship with most people. Valentines Day has not really been a big deal to me growing up. It's nice but maybe just too commercialized. You hear most of the single people complain of Valentines Day and yes, I tend to feel bad for them but really we all have a valentine in our life. Whoever means a lot to us can be our valentine.

Anyway, what I really wanted to say about Valentines Day is that was I haven't really been on a date with my hubby in over a year. We were long overdue. So tonight we left the house for 1 hour and went to Starbucks, thanks on behalf of my mommy...

and it was sooooo fun! It was so short, so sweet, so simple, and I THOROUGHLY enjoyed myself. Whenever we spend time together without being parents, I am reminded again how much I love that man!!! God showed me mercy big time with him.

 Rolling on with the Valentine theme...I caught myself last night beginning to complain about all the valentine stuff. This year it has been hard work to make sure we have all the cards written out for each classmate, enough candy for all, love notes written for the family, going to the valentine appointments, which really I only had to go to one party this week. However, it just seemed like ALOT!

So in the midst of my complaining, I realized how STUPID it was to complain.

 I wanted children. I got them. I wanted to stay home with them, I get to. I want to be involved with their school functions, I can and I am! I have NO excuse to complain...

 I repented...immediatly. Thank you Lord for your mercy!

But I am THANKFUL most of this week is behind me because the bathrooms have been neglected and they need some attention....

but now that I think about it...they can wait till next week! Tomorrows friday...not feeling like its a bathroom cleaning day. So if you come over and you have to use my bathroom, I will at least make sure there is enough toilet paper in there for you.

Oh Yeah, just so my mom doesn't strangle me...here is what she really looks like. :)

She really should be a model!

Till Next Time!